Thinking...always thinking

More and more I find myself withdrawing... thinking
Just not saying the first thing that comes to mind, for a change, when it comes to my personal relationships with people. Not sure how or why I am doing this.
I guess its just something that I need to do.

I spoke to the "Other" last night, but I guess it would be today...sort of.
And while part of me is glad that the "other" has their own ringtone, i hope it doesnt make me dislike the song because of my sometimes not too shiny-happy feelings toward the other.
Sigh...I dont know whats going on in my head
I know I am an emotional creature
And I know I forgive easily...too easily sometimes.

Uggghhhh I need to go somewhere... I need to go somewhere thats warm, with sand and ocean, and palm trees and places where I can sit back and read all day.
I need to do this...before I crack...
before its too late for me