Thursday, December 31, 2009
2010 Forecast for Cancer - Lets hope its good!
6/22 – 7/22
Year 2010 Overview
One thing that all Crabs (astrological Cancers or the seafood type of crab) know deep in their hearts is that someone, somewhere out there knows how great it would be to bust them wide open and eat them with melted butter. The big news for you this year, Cancer, is that Pluto has moved into your Seventh House, which rules marriage, partnerships and close relationships. This means that someone may very well be cracking your heart open in the next year.
Cancer has a bit of a reputation for enjoying doom and gloom. You don't. You just seem to get more than your fair share of it. It must be that thick shell of yours. Everyone assumes you can just take it.
The good news is that you earned that reputation because you can take it, and more. And often, your greatest moments come when you have overcome the greatest obstacles. Thankfully, the roadblocks you face in 2010 won't be that devastating, but they'll certainly give you an opportunity to shine. New support and new energy will be entering your life from unexpected and overlooked people and things, and you'll be able to soar above it all!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Ramadan 2009 - Day 1
Oh sure, the first morning thanks are important, but after that, its best I go back to bed, because lets face it: if I'm up that early these days, I'm probably going to go get something to eat and thats kinda defeating the purpose right now.
I am committed to completing this year's Ramadan in full spirit.
My intention is to learn as much Quran as possible, and to cleanse myself.
Also, I am looking forward to the Zakat portion, as it is like a fire lit under me these past few weeks (thanks to Momentum)
Inshallah, I will make it thru today without incident, and once I do, I will be able to go the next day, and the next...
All praises due to Allah, all faults belong to me.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Your Inactions Are Showing!
This has me internally laughing, because it didnt mention the most important part of this issue:
INACTION
If the guy isnt making any moves or developments, whether its just a standard stall technique, or if he is completely inactive on anything that helps the progression of the relationship, then you have your answer!
I have noticed that men are social creatures to a certain extent. Not all of them are going to get struck by the "settle down and breed" bug, some are just completely ok with going the bee route (flower to flower) and not sticking to any one person after a certain amount of time.
And not to say that there's anything wrong, because some women are the same way.
The point is that their inactions sometimes speak louder than any other actions or tactics mentioned in the above linked article.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Beautiful Day
But it was a good day! Hell, it was a great day!
The weather was really nice, the sun didnt blind me, but the cold didnt make me shiver.
I took photos, ooh'd and aah'd at things I've seen about a dozen or so times as a kid, and just recently as early this month. Since my mom hadnt been to the museum in years, it was all kind of new again for her.
After milling around a bit thru the dinosaurs, mineral samples, native expedition trips and animals stuffed into dioramas, we took a short walk to the local street fair.
Checked out some jewelry, rugs and stuff. Next we went to Shake Shack (which was like heaven in upper west for me!) and had a burger and fries.
Next stop was to William Sonoma which, lets face it, anyone who knows me, knows I love baking! is like a candy shop for me! I got a new set of mixing bowls, glass, and they were a bargain!
Went home after that, and logged in to work, but that didnt get me down.
My workload wasnt as heavy/tainted as normal, so I think this was overall a beautiful day :)
Even now, its at the end, and I am still smiling
Faith is a Funny Thing...
I find that this is more true when religion is brought into play
But belief does not always need to be associated with religion
It is just a matter of faith
Faith in oneself
Faith in others
Faith in a higher power
Faith in knowing
Faith in not knowing
Faith in Faith
There are so many tihngs to believe and believe in, no matter what the reason or cause
And when someone has a 'crisis of faith' it could mean alot of things
Last night, I had a crisis of belief, not in anything religious, or even personal
I remembered why I do not like to go "out" into social situations where there is drinking
I dont drink, but I do not push my beliefs on others, as I would not wish them to put themselves upon me
I was talking to someone who mocked me, openly, for the first time in ages
Now I am one who can take it as well as dish it, but here was a complete stranger, without knowing my reasoning or caring, talking down on my personal preference
Had he simply walked away, it would have been no problem
As it was, he proceded to go on about the pros of recreational drinking
To which I replied "IF that is what you belief, that is fine. I do not choose to believe that for my own personal reasons. I respect your choice"
But this did not sit well with this person, who refused to just agree to disagree
At that point, I was forced to walk away before losing my personal restraint.
But it was a solid reminder...
My faith held me, and particularly my fists, in check
This is funny to me, because as of late, Ive found myself in situations where I have not hesitated to tell someone what was exactly on my mind
But I took the high road... Not to say I havent in the past but it was just a quick reminder
Monday, March 9, 2009
He Who Must Not Be Named
That there is always someone who 'must not be named" because of one reason or another
And I find this to be true of life in general
Take for example that in all things related to people and relationships, whether friendships, romances or just random chance encounters, there are one of three emotions that can be associated with the connections formed with new acquaintances:
Positive
Ambiguous
Negative
In the positive category, we are always quick to name those things that make the associated relation (friend, lover, relative, kind stranger, etc) based on their traits and characteristics, if not in name alone
In the ambiguous category, we neither feel extremes of either positive or negative influences in our opinions, or at least not enough to sway our stance in most cases. Should that change, however, then a person placed originally in the ambiguous category gets moved to one of the other two.
And then we have the negative, which always inspires more names than one would like to ever admit uttering in most cases. Yet, simply, we tend to remove the name of those who have been placed in this category, not out of fear, but perhaps regret...sadness...pain...
I have my own list of nameless, who shall remain so...
Yet these nameless are not all negatively influenced...ok, 99% are, but that 1% that is in this category, who began as an ambiguous anonymity...and remains this way... they will not go named as a reminder...
All the rest are nameless to me and me alone. Their names have no power or currency here.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Do you match?
There is something exhilarating about taking the big leap from dating to becoming a permanent "item" and making that final commitment. But before you run off into the sunset with your mate, make sure that the time you choose to commit is the right time -- and with the right person.
As a divorce attorney, I have found over the years that most couples who wind up splitting do so because there are discrepancies or control issues over what I term the "Big Six." These six categories include: wealth/property and money; children; health, physical and mental; growth, professional and personal; intimacy and loss of love; and fear, both physical and emotional. I ask my clients to take a close look at each of these categories to determine if there are major conflicts, not only with his or her chosen mate but also conflicts within themselves.
Have you found the right person? Is it the right time? Here are eight key questions to ask your mate -- and yourself. The answers will be very telling.
1. How do you believe we should spend our money and on what? If your mate says, "On fun stuff and we'll get to the bills later," you better reconsider going the commitment route until your mate grows up a bit. Most marriages and long-term relationships break up due to stresses and squabbles over money. Splits happen when a couple's values in spending and saving simply do not match. Don't overlook this question. It is critical in determining whether you or your mate are a match and whether you are both ready for a mature relationship -- one that requires fiscal responsibility.
2. What are your thoughts about starting a family? If your mate says, "This is not something I can even think about right now," do not ignore that remark. It could be that your mate will put this decision off longer than you wish or one day stand up and announce, "I've decided against having children." You also need to be honest with yourself. Do you want children? Let your mate know this up front. You may also want to ask your mate about his/her point of view on how the children should be raised. If there are huge discrepancies in this department, there are bound to be serious problems down the road.
3. If I get sick, how will you take care of me? If your mate laughs off such a question with, "How do I know? I'll figure it out then," you should take that offhanded remark as a serious indicator that your mate might not be grown up enough to handle your critical needs. There is a way to test this one: How does your mate treat you when you get sick with the flu? Also, if you know deep down that you would not have the patience or fortitude to care for an ailing mate, be fair and let him/her know of your concerns. Who needs someone in his/her life who is only there for the good times?
4. Do you envision us growing old together? If your mate quips, "How the heck do I know, that is a long way off" or "I guess so," neither answer should satisfy you. To suggest that you or your mate is uncertain of your eventual fate together -- or cannot envision those "golden" years as a couple -- should be a neon sign with bright red lights that flash, "This may only be temporary." Commitments should be thought of as permanent, not temporary.
5. Do you ever think about your ex? If the answer from your mate is "Well, I do sometimes," then you want to ask the next question: "In what context?" If your mate shares stories about the fun they used to have together, this could mean your mate is not over his or her last love. And what about you? Do you still think about your ex? When? How? I highly recommend backing off the commitment stage until you and your mate can safely say that thoughts about your exes are fleeting or random.
6. Has your mate ever told you they scared a former mate in any way? If your mate's answer is something like "Well, yeah, I scared my ex every time I became jealous or mad," step back and think twice. Though your mate may think he/she is ready for a commitment, it may not be the right time for one. If you have had similar issues, the same may apply to you. Are you worried your mate might cheat on you or keep secrets from you or inflict emotional or physical harm on you? If the answer is yes, tackle this now, not after you have made a commitment. Maybe you or your mate could benefit from therapy, anger management, rehab, or other appropriate behavior modification assistance.
7. Is your mate good at problem solving? Does your mate meet challenges head on and collaborate on solutions to problems, or sweep issues under the rug? What about you? Are you mature enough to approach your mate to say, "We have a problem. Let's find a solution to it." How you handle problems together may well determine how long your relationship will last.
8. How does my mate deal with a "screwup?" Does my mate place blame? Does my mate take responsibility for his/her actions? How do I handle my mistakes? Do we both acknowledge our errors and resolve to deal with them? If chronic, negative behavior persists in this area, take a second look to decide if you two are a good match and if you are ready to commit. It is not unusual, for instance, to have each partner blame the other, which rarely accomplishes anything. Placing blame, or finding fault, can only worsen once you are committed.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Just Not That Into You...Or Me!
that they are all after just the one thing
then comes a shining light, one man who is full of such goodness,
and good intentions that it makes you pause...just a moment..
before you realize that this man is either
gay, married, or just not that into you...or me!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Thinking...always thinking
Just not saying the first thing that comes to mind, for a change, when it comes to my personal relationships with people. Not sure how or why I am doing this.
I guess its just something that I need to do.
I spoke to the "Other" last night, but I guess it would be today...sort of.
And while part of me is glad that the "other" has their own ringtone, i hope it doesnt make me dislike the song because of my sometimes not too shiny-happy feelings toward the other.
Sigh...I dont know whats going on in my head
I know I am an emotional creature
And I know I forgive easily...too easily sometimes.
Uggghhhh I need to go somewhere... I need to go somewhere thats warm, with sand and ocean, and palm trees and places where I can sit back and read all day.
I need to do this...before I crack...
before its too late for me
Monday, February 9, 2009
Letting Go Of The Emotional Rollercoaster
Last year I met someone who was very much in tune with me...
We got along great, had a lot of the same views but were very different in other ways so it wasnt awkward.
But there were so many problems:
- Distance - long distance doesnt work for me, especially since I dont drive
- Children - never had a successful relationship where there were kids involved because there's always either baby-mama drama or some other issue related
- Pre-existing Personal Issue - wont go into detail
But these things, I was willing to put aside, and even accept.
Problem was he couldnt handle it... and I wouldnt let go at first...
Now I'm ready to let go, and I feel like I'm being led along, strung along...
And I hate it! Because its like Im letting myself fall back into this Twilight Zone of mis-proportioned-emotions...
I can't wait for the ride to stop so I can get off already... I feel like I'm going to vomit if it doesnt slow down soon.
The downfall of being an empath is that the emotions we feel arent always our own... and there's not always a good way to control how we feel when we feel what we feel. I wish there was a mute button.
And good grief what is up with Pandora today?!?!?! Im writing how I want to fall out of love, and the friggin player starts playing "Lovefool" by the Cardigans... jeez
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Serenity and Shakespeare remembered
Oh wait...I forgot...I dont have any children.
I was watching television, and a show thats coming up, and the tag line for the commercial was
"O what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive"
I dont think I will ever forget that line, or why I will never forget it
My old Shakespeare teacher, caught me in a lie about something, and I had to write out 100 times that phrase. And then I had to write a reason for why I had to write it! As though the lines themselves werent enough!
But it makes me remember why its important to be as truthful as possible. The web of lies that can ensnare us all, have the ability to choke those who become entangled.
That web is closing in on me, but not because of the lies I have told... but more along the lies I think have been told to me
Another phrase that struck me this weekend was this:
"In order to stay in love with someone you have to fall in love over and over again"
That is so true. It kind of goes hand in hand with lasting forever, the whole "making the love last" motif. And it reminded me of the saying "A man must love the woman more than the woman loves the man for the love to really work"...
Too many things to think about... i think i'll stop now
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Karen's Baby Shower!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Equus (On Broadway)
As for the play itself, it was very interesting!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Friggin Stalkers...
and the whole restricted/private call bit is old, like dusty, old
give me a break!
Ive been getting calls from restricted numbers as of late, and I can only think of one person who it could be. anyone who calls and hangs up, is a coward!
Its one thing if the person calls, and no one picks up the phone...
Its a whole other thing to just call, wait for the person to pick up, and shuffle around/breathe heavy/etc and then hang up
If you want to hear my voice, I have voicemail
or better yet, say something!
frigging stalking cowards
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Cancer Overview for 2009 - Who Knows
Today, January 03, 2009, 2:37:30 PM
Year 2009 OverviewProvided by Astrology.com
Cancer
As we enter the Golden Age of Aquarius, you are ready to receive all the blessings that are there for you, especially in the areas of communications and relationships.
Being understood and getting the responses you desire helps you believe in your ability to succeed and reach your highest potential. Your focus is excellent, and you know what you want. Use this to your advantage when working with others, but don't demand that they see your ideas as visionary -- even if you do. As ideas start flowing freely to you, make sure you articulate your insights clearly.
This year, you will be strongly motivated by transformation, especially in romantic unions. When balanced in your heart and mind, you easily express your emotions and are quick to support others. It is important for you to have a partner who is willing to explore different ways of doing things. You will experience many changes as you learn new ways of expressing yourself.
As you make this shift, avoid putting restrictions on yourself and stopping the flow. You are learning to behave in a new positive way, not worrying about the outcome. This will curb your need to control situations and enable you to take your relationships -- work and personal -- to a higher level of consciousness.
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Friday, January 2, 2009
The New Year
I took today off as a "floating holiday" in the pretense of having a four day weekend. Im glad for it, because I got to rest and relax.
From what I had heard, its dull as all hell in the office, with only the occassional crazy person calling in to gripe about this or that.
I do, however, look forward to my weekend, Im going to be seeing some friends whom I have not seen in a long time, so thats going to be fun!
