There Aint No Comedy In This Stand-Up Routine...

I can not believe I fell for this again. I hate the fact that I care, and let people get close to me. I hate the fact that when I do care and let people get close to me, they turn out to be less.
I took a 3 year break from relationships, drama, headaches, pain, and for what? To realize that all the men who attract themselves to me, are filled with all the things I spent 3 years running and hiding from.
Maybe if I just stopped trying...
Maybe if I go back into the shell I was in, I will be better. I will be fine.
As much as I dont want to be lonely and alone the rest of my life, I'd prefer it to being hurt over and over again.

The latest lie was one I really tried, against my lack of trust in most men in general, to believe! so convincing. He said he would take me out today, to try and make up for some of the things that have been happening...or should I say, NOT happening.
So I didnt think anything of it when I didnt hear anything over the weekend. Last I heard from him, we were still on for today. Lo and behold, the day passes...no call, no text, no anything.
And I know now, that as the 9 o'clock hour approaches, there wont be one.
And that for me is the final straw.

In the words of Gunta, "Up with this shit, I will not put!"