Im no Bridget Jones but...

I just got re-inspired to do the whole 'share your feelings/write it down' bit by

a) reading a friend's new blog, which I see is clearly helping him put down some of his day to day thoughts so he can better organize them

and

b) the very fact that Im watching Bridget Jones, for the umpteenth time

Maybe it is therapeutic to write these things down

I know my head is pretty full these days, with all the bit on about layoffs at work, banks dropping like flies, the economy swirling in a dirty cesspool and oh yea, did I forget to mention that its seriously cold!

I was supposed to have done more with myself by now... but its December, and somehow I dont feel I've even hit my halfway mark yet.

Maybe this is just a revelation... but on second thought, as I write this with my eyes closed, and my head down, I realize that not all of the things that have happened this year are bad or turning toward the worst.

I have a new baby god son, one of my close friends (just found out yesterday) is preggers (which would explain the sudden rash of sympathy eating and bloaty roundness Ive been feeling for the past week) and Ive lost a lot of weight. Not quite at my goal yet, but will be if I can just get it back into my head to do it and stick with it.

Earlier this morning, I attempted to go and get my hair done - just a blow and flat, but the girl was running late. So I stood there in the cool, for 45 mins before giving up, and wouldnt you know it thats the precise time she shows up (after I've already gotten onto the bus, and my hands are just starting to realize that they can pump blood afterall!) She text me at like 10, but then didnt show till 10:45, thats bollocks, because I dont care what kind of traffic (which there was NONE when I took a cab over earlier) there may or may not have been, but its frankly unprofessional to have a client waiting in the freezing cold. Now Ive got a migraine/tension headache the whole day that just wont go away. So instead of giving up totally, I try and go to the salon next door to my house, and that was a huge laughing stock! No way in hell will I ever step foot into that place without my hair being in a desperate emergency! And even then, I would never speak to the woman who I spoke with today... she was utterly rude!

So now I am sitting here with a bird-nest.. but thats not the reason for the nest

I had an unexpected visit today! My friend brought my godson and goddaughter over today, I havent seen them in a year! It was so nice! We played most of the evening, so my hair is in shambles from them playing with me, and in it lol. I love them, and so glad they were able to stop by :)

UGH why wont this damn head ache go away already!!!! And to top it off, tooth-ache building... I dont need this right now, I just want to go to sleep...on second thought... I want to not go to sleep. I want to turn over and read a book... but the only books Im interestesd in Ive just finished reading, and all the copies are with other people. Sigh... I'll have the set soon enough.

So sleep it is...

Maybe this wasnt such a bad idea afterall